Something happened yesterday where it probably sounds like no big deal but after witnessing it, it really made me think. A lot.So two other classmates and I were called down to meet with one of our teachers and on our way back up to class two guys came up to my guy friend. Basically what happened is they took him by the neck, and I guess tried to ob him. I had to witness something.. like this? Why. It really bothered me the fact that I didn't end up doing anything, and I really regret it. But I was scared. My other friend told us to just pretend we didn't see anything, this is something I couldn't do. I ended up talking to him, and I'm less worried now. The thing is this guy right here is I'd have to say one of the chillest people I've encountered, he's a goon look type guy but is friggen genius. And just as a friend, seeing him get hurt, really hurt me.
I took a lot out of this though, the fact that the world is not as happy as you want it to be, things happen. People do stupid things to hurt other people. People do things, to hurt other people. I don't understand why, and I never will. I try to think of all the possibilities and its pretty crazy. I thought, maybe they tried to take it out on my friend because it happened to them? But just being able to witness this tiny event, made me realize how many other corrupt, horrible things people can do to other. Call me naive, but I'll never let go of the question of why can't people just get along. It's complicated. I have so much more to say. Even the people I hang with probably do this to others too, but I don't know. I could never do something to someone. It's just horrible. What has society taught us these days that the thought of even doing these things have to exist in their minds? Why, why why why. I have so much more to learn, I know. But I'm ready for it.
Wednesday, October 27, 2010 @ Corrupted Yet Reality? Pt.1
Saturday, September 25, 2010 @ Self-Concious
What is it with me? I really don't know I constantly have people telling me how much of a ''down to earth, chill, and talented'' humble person I am. Yet I always make myself think that I'm never good enough. I am true to myself I can say that for a fact, I just seem to lack a lot of confidence at times. This is why I do things like dance and sing, because when I do, it makes me feel so good about myself.
Sunday, September 19, 2010 @ Kay so I lied, but I'm back now.
Life's been rough. Especially with a certain someone who I care a lot about in life. Theres no doubt that youhve to go through shit before learning. She never seemed to listen to what we had to say, until she got in trouble for it. So this is how it will be, I'm kinda hurt knowing that shes scared at times but I guess thats life. Gotta learn to let go. I'm grateful for God's guidance through this, for he give me so much strength.
Saturday, May 01, 2010 @ MIA
Ive been offa blogger for quite a while now, Im sorry I ditched you for tumblr. I'll try to post here ore often now :)
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Havent seen this chick in 6 years, we used to be like bff's. So much has changeeed.
Saturday, January 30, 2010 @ Old People, Holding Hands.
I praise those whose love really does last forever.
Sunday, January 24, 2010 @
The way I think may be very different compared to many teenage girls, I think like this. All I need is my family and friends. Honestly I really do want to know how it feels to be “in love” as I said in my soul mate note, I think theres someone for everyone. And its only a matter of time that you find him. Im excited. I really am, but at this point even though I have a few guys on my mind, I think I just gotta bun them and focus on having fun, enjoying life/education blah blah. you know ? Honestly, I just gotta stop thinking too much , because after I so stop, life would be almost perfect and I could be my true self . With the help of my fam, God, music and friends I think I can do this :) B-b-b-bun boys… for now ;)
Thursday, January 21, 2010 @
I believe that there is someone for everyone . Alot of the times I wonder, when the day will come where I get to meet this guy, This guy Ive been idealizing for so long. Sometimes I wonder if I should open up to those who interest in me, I don’t know if I’m afraid to find love or I’m just sure its not him so I let them pass. I just know that I don’t give in that easily when it comes to guys, I have standards.Idealizing about that one guy that one guy I can talk to, laugh at and share my stories with. Lets just say I cant wait till I find my soul-mate.
