how fucking fast did this year go byy ? Id have to say, it was a pretty good year and i infinitley thank god for pullin me through safely. A new year, a fresh start. Oppurtunities come, i will take them .
2010 Bring it On !

On my waay too jaekels for a sleepover, last night of 2009 . Let it all ouut !

omfg theyve left me again, ive got the house to myself and maria for a month ! Its gonna be QUIETTT .
I fuckin love you guys

christmas break is going by tooo fast .

guess whaat ?! i found the kris kringle gift, its a sexy ass bag which i want for myself . but im glad that i can check something off of that list .

this songs stuck in my head

Never thought that we would ever be more than friends
Now I'm all confused cause for you I have deeper feelings
We both thought it was cool to cross the line
And I was convinced it would be alright
Now things are strange, nothings the same
And really I just want my friend back

And my mind's gone half crazy cause I can't leave you alone (oh can't get you out of my system)
And I'm wondering if it's worth me holding on
Said my mind's gone half crazy cause I can't leave you alone
And I'm wondering if it's worth me holding on

spent the day with fam, and oh man was it live or what ?!
we went downtown and saw faberdrive, my parents were like wtf and went shopping for a bit but overall fam is love like freaal .

hmm what was that quote ? You don't choose your family. They are God's gift to you, as you are to them. its true, dont take them for granted .

alright so, just wanted to get down the things i want and need to get done during these 2 weeks,.

[ ] sleepover@adishas
[ ] breathe gentle/xmas/russian roulette video cover
[ ] truffles with carolyn
[ ] chill with tgif fam
[ ] adrian domingo's surprise bday
[ ] kris kringle exchange
[ ] english isu
[ ] history isu (meetup)
[ ] nps skating


for now, thats all i can think of...

it was the beginning of christmas break and today was simply amazinggg,

Started off at school with our dance performance which was sooo much fun . the j'la soul fam, you guys are the friggen best. It was my first ever official dance performance, and to be able to perform, it was indescribable. I think that even though we only performed for those few minutes, and went through all that soreness and practice, it was so worth it.




after the dance we were hungryyyyy, and decided to go to asian buffet for some foood , that was live . it feels good to go out and eat with friends, i think ill do it more often .



the ended off with the tgif crew, and we did the most retarded thing, but it was so jokes. the video, jam session, webcam pictures, toooo live. But hey , did i mention that i love my friends ?




its funny because yesterday i was having such a bad day , im telling you . it only gets better .

"if you think real hard, you'll find the right path.''

i have this friend, this guy friend. im not sure if i like him, but hes very.. cool .
the thing is, we can only talk when we are with friends,
and when we are alone theres this awkward feeling?
especially because ive been seeing him often lately i know he isnt what im looking for.
im sure that this guy will be able o talk to me comfortably, and vice versa.
quote from this random night i jotted down in my notebook

ive been dancing for the fast few days, rehearsing for the christmas assembly.
even though, im sore as helll . its so worth it, in the end i think ill have this tingly feeling.
dancing is so fun :)

so many plans :

[ ] find kris kringle present
[ ] christmas assembly
[ ] French ISU
[ ] eatons with fam
[ ] get new camera
[ ] breathe gentle and russian roulette cover

monique's party downtown, was amaaaaazing.
went to the cavalcade of lights and saw "State of Shock".
having the lights shine on you with the cold air and chrstmas lights felt soo good !
happy sweet sixteen momo <3 !

alright i pretty sure i know what to get him : )
my christmas wishlist,

-baggy sweaterss like always man. something like this


-v-necks
-leather jacket
-knittedscarf
-bf jeans/acid washed
-cute leather messenger bag
-black leather ankle boots
-shooes

ou how i love christmas

my friend, says hes depressed that hes hit rock bottom or rather close to it,
my boy, you need to stop being so stubborn and pull your pants up.
i know it may be hard, especially with all the shit you go through and
what you have to put up with at home .
but if you wanna get somewhere in life , you gotta try .
push YOURSELF. ill be here, if i can help in any way .

One night I dreamed I was walking along the beach with the Lord. Many scenes from my life flashed across the sky.

In each scene I noticed footprints in the sand. Sometimes there were two sets of footprints, other times there was one only.

This bothered me because I noticed that during the low periods of my life, when I was suffering from anguish, sorrow or defeat, I could see only one set of footprints, so I said to the Lord,

“You promised me Lord,
that if I followed you, you would walk with me always. But I have noticed that during the most trying periods of my life there has only been one set of footprints in the sand. Why, when I needed you most, have you not been there for me?”

The Lord replied, “The years when you have seen only one set of footprints, my child, is when I carried you.”

---

Mary Stevenson, 1936

today i visited a seniors home where i was able to sing for the old folks. i was able to see what life was like for them. i was pretty down while i was there, because it reminded me of my grandma . the one who was in a wheelchair in the back right corner. i felt so happy to be able to add that tiny bit of cheer into those seniors holiday. it looks like it would really suck of my children were to just throw me into a senors home, id be so sad and lonely : (

its december, i want snow !

why think too much about what you dont have,
when you have so much to be grateful for ?

hello the name is jennifer myky lam | july5,94'| Single | MPJ
I am just another highschool girl, still trying to find who i am , still trying to find "the one" . I lovee music, and singing. It makes me happy, and can be my painkiller at times . I am soo greatful for the loved ones around me because without them, seriously I wouldnt know what to do . I love to love, and hate to hate. I say, dont judge if you dont know them, get to know me . I keep it real , when I've hit rock bottom , I know I've got God's guidance, grace and patience . My God is mighty to save , Capture my heart again . Even though I’ve run into some obstacles I know that everything happens for a reason and so hopefully as I continue to live my life, I run into more positive events that will change me to become a better person . Through everything I thank my loved ones for being there and making my history what it is now. 

Ajrafael / AndresR / CassandraN / EdriC / JaekelF / JamileeAbad / JayneAbad / JennIbana / JennC / JessicaE / JesicaC / JohnaA / KevinSayco / LinhThan / LotisMendez / MelanieR / MercedesM / MistyC / SusanH /

[X] Update Resume
[X] Expirience TGIF
[ ] Cover of Love/PromiseintheDark
[ ] Job Hunting Again
[X] Jam Session w/ Olmos/Gomez
[X] Video with Samar
[ ] Video with MM
[ ] Video with Lovebug
[ ] Bake Strawberry Shortcake
[X] Cover 'Battlefield' -Jordin